I’ve Been Through the Fire… And I’m Still Here. Stronger. Clearer. Free.
Photo by Elisha May
Like many high-sensory, empathic beings…
I didn’t arrive at this work because it was trendy.
I arrived here through initiation.
Through grief. Through trauma. Through fire.
This is just some of what I’ve survived:
My dad: a fellow HSP and empath, spent a decade of my youth in bed with chronic fatigue and adrenal collapse. He was unwell, shut down, and disconnected from life. But through time, support, and one pivotal conversation with my late brother, he found his way back. He’s now thriving and living life on his terms.
My brother, Nathan Wills: a talented music producer and YouTuber, took his own life just days before his 31st birthday. A deep-feeling soul who couldn’t survive the weight of this world. His death cracked my life open.
My mum has experienced five major psychosis episodes across her life, each one triggered by emotional trauma, hormonal shifts, or extreme energetic overwhelm. Two followed pregnancy. One came during menopause, six months after my own traumatic experience in New York, where I was gaslit and psychologically abused by a narcissist I worked for. The fourth happened after I moved out, another rupture in the family field. And the fifth, in December 2024, came after my dad nearly died from critically high blood pressure. Each episode shattered the surface of our family reality. Each one carved a deeper wound into my nervous system, especially as a high-sensory, empathic daughter who felt everything. But that final one in 2024 was the hardest. Because by then, I was awake. Trained. Initiated. And somehow, I had the capacity to hold it. Not from avoidance, not from numbness, but from presence. I sat with her in the most extreme pain I’ve ever witnessed. I didn’t collapse. I became the energetic container. My heart energy centre expanded. Not because I’m superhuman, but because of the unique configuration of my Human Design, my soul training, and the deep inner work I’ve done for over a decade. I don’t say that to impress you. I say it to make something clear:
This is my gift. And this is why I do the work I do.
That experience cracked open a generational wound, not just my mother’s, but mine. Her pain over my brother. Her grief for her own mother. Her lifelong abandonment wound, which I had been carrying in my own body for years. And in the months that followed, through my twin flame initiation and spiritual awakening, I began to heal it all. Not just for her. For me. For the lineage.
For every woman who’s ever collapsed under the weight of feeling too much.
I cared for my gran in her final three months. It was beautiful. And brutal. It taught me about strength, surrender, and the dignity of death.
In my early twenties, I was a live-in nanny for a covert narcissist abroad. It was a year of gaslighting, fear, and emotional breakdown and yet, it marked the beginning of my spiritual awakening. That chapter left me with PTSD… and also gave me spiritual sight.
I’ve navigated toxic relationships, unsafe workplaces, and soul-deadening jobs. I didn’t know my needs because the world never taught me how to understand my system. That all changed when I discovered Sensory Processing Sensitivity. Finally, I understood who I was and who I wasn’t.
And still, I rise.
But this isn’t just about the pain.
This is about the alchemy.
Because alongside those dark chapters, I’ve also known magic. I’ve felt divine joy, frequency highs, heart-expanding love, and a sense of connection to life that many never taste, because I feel everything.
I am not here to numb.
I’m here to feel.
To process. To transmute.
And to guide others in doing the same.
On Motherhood
One of the deepest reckonings of my life has been ‘not’ choosing a child-free path, not because I couldn’t have children, or didn’t meet the right partner, but because I know in my bones that my mission requires a different kind of devotion. Or maybe… it’s timing…
I love deeply. I nurture fiercely. But I choose to pour that energy into the collective. Into the healing of others. Into the rebuilding of lives, hearts, and nervous systems.
That decision took years of inner work. But I’m proud of it.
And I want to help other women feel powerful — not broken — for choosing the same.
Final Word
If you’ve walked through pain and wonder whether you’re meant for more, you are.
If you’ve felt like the world is too much, maybe you were never meant to fit it.
Maybe you were born to change it. You’re not alone. This is why I do the work I do.
And if you feel called to work with someone who sees all of you, even the parts you’ve hidden, I’m here.
Elisha x
