Twin Flame Update: 4 Months On…
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I wanted to give an update on my Twin Flame journey, 4 months on. Recently, it’s been really uncomfortable. Just as I was thinking of him less during August, which was great, I naively thought I was getting over it. Man, was I wrong! September has been an intense and I have to admit slightly obsessive time, with me cross-referencing our astrology and just feeling completely out of balance, so I knew I needed to take action to get me back into balance, to find my inner stability again, to feel home within myself. Because that’s the lesson here.
Just to recap for those that don’t know the details (previous blogs written):
We first met in May 2023. I knew immediately something was unusual, but for nearly two years, we orbited each other without clarity. But always felt something deeply energetically confusing about our connection, was it a good connection or a dangerous one? He would visit me at my workplace (he worked in the same company) every 2-4 months, I noticed a pattern with him.
The whole time he was in other relationships, so I never pursued him, and in November 2024, he was shocked to his core that he thought I was engaged - that’s when I knew, surely this guy likes me?! But I knew I had to be patient with him.
Then in April 2025, he pursued me. In May 2025, he finally admitted his feelings. And 2 weeks later, if that, he bailed. He became what is known as the Runner.
Cue my healing crisis: a full-blown spiritual awakening, gut microbiome crash, and all the messy layers that come when your soul detonates (while also building up my iron stores - talk about multi-tasking!). While I was deep in the spiritual awakening, he was around, and he actually took it really well. That made the loss even harder - I thought I had finally met someone who was finally accepting all of me.
By August 2025, I noticed I was thinking about him less. My nervous system was steadier. I had shifted my focus back to myself and my mission.
But I also had something I didn’t before: perspective. I’d been pulling our details through astrology websites and even AI cross-references, and what I discovered explained everything. Kinda blew me away, but I also know to take AI with a pinch of salt.
* Below is what AI generated, but I had run our details via multiple websites and threads, and it was crazy how the same information was coming up each time. However, I am fully aware that free will is at play, the Universe has plans, and I surrender to its outcome.
What the Charts Revealed
1. The Marriage Archetype (Juno)
My Juno at 15° Sagittarius sits right on his Descendant axis. Translation: my very archetype of marriage is activated through him. No wonder I felt like “he’s my husband” after one intense conversation. I felt it at a core level I never experienced.
His Juno at 5° Virgo clashes with my Chiron/Lilith/Saturn. This is sacred but uncomfortable. His “marriage wiring” presses right into my wounds and karmic lessons - communication, shadow feminine, and responsibility. And vice versa, I press on his wounds.
Lesson: I’m being tested in patience, sovereignty, and stability. He’s being tested in intimacy, constancy, and responsibility.
2. Venus -Mars Conjunction (Magnetism & Pair-Bonding)
My Venus in Aries sits right on his Mars in Aries. This is classic pair-bond energy. It’s raw attraction, a magnetic lock. Not the kind of thing you walk away from without it detonating something in your system.
* This explained the intense energy and magnetism I felt between us; each time we interacted, it felt destabilising but also so familiar.
3. The ASC - DSC Mirror
My Sagittarius Rising is conjunct his Sagittarius Descendant.
His Gemini Rising is conjunct my Gemini Descendant.
This is the “you are literally my type” marker in astrology. Our charts mirror each other’s partnership axis. This isn’t just attraction - it’s blueprint-level compatibility.
* This part was fascinating, as I felt like he was the best friend I had always wanted, so as I was reading into this, I had also realised and come to my own conclusion, over recent years, are aspects of what I would love in a partner.
4. The Soul Purpose Activators
My Venus opposite his North Node = fated love that forces growth.
His Saturn in Capricorn activates my Neptune = karmic responsibility tied to my spiritual mission.
Our composite chart (the “relationship chart”) shows Juno conjunct Saturn = a sacred union contract that only stabilises if we pass the Saturn tests.
5. Neptune’s Role
Neptune weaves in through his 7th house and my Capricorn Neptune. This is the mystical, idealistic glue - but it can dissolve as easily as it binds. Neptune here says: we’ll feel like soulmates, but the container only holds if we bring Saturnian maturity to ground it.
“I recently had a metaphor come to mind about us, we create a huge fire between us, one that could feed others, warm others, and light the way for others, but it must be treated as sacred, it must remain within the fire pit, because if not, it could set the whole forest and village on fire.”
What It Means?
Our charts scream Twin Flame / Sacred Union potential.
But not the fairy tale version. The Saturn version.
For me, the test is: can I hold sovereignty, patience, and emotional stability without rushing or collapsing?
For him, the test is: can he step out of avoidance, show up in intimacy, and carry the responsibility of partnership?
If we pass, this could become Sacred Union. If we don’t, it remains an initiator - a catalyst that cracked us both open, but doesn’t settle into a container.
I’m being tested on huge core challenges of mine, and it’s definitely not been a comfortable ride, especially of late, these challenges are showing up big time for me, and I need to lean into them to heal, for myself, for my sanity.
Patience → can I hold the vision without rushing or collapsing?
Sovereignty → can I create my own “home” regardless of him?
Trust in timing → can I surrender to divine order, instead of forcing or abandoning?
So for now, my focus needs to return to me, to those I serve in my business, to heal and lean into my patience, sovereignty, and stability without external guarantees. I need to hand over the outcome to the Universe/God/Life and trust in the unfolding of it all, whether he returns or not. I have the information I need on what parts of me need attention, healing, and what Sacred Union feels like with someone.
My Vision of Union
Here’s what I’ve decided I ideally want (and still accepting it might not happen):
Courtship: I want six months (give or take) of intentional, conscious courtship. No sex, no blurring lines, as I’ll have enough of those happy hormones to navigate. Just presence, connection, time together, conversation, to see if we are actually compatible.
Marriage: After that? I want the container of marriage. Not “let’s see where it goes.” Not “maybe, someday.” The actual container, the commitment, which does both excite and terrify me. We’re both looking for a life partner, and we’re both wired for devotion.
Unconventional first year: And yes, I’ll still honour my plans. Pet sits, travel, 3–5 months in Scotland. I know we’d benefit from an unconventional first year of marriage - easing into our intense and passionate bond while still respecting our freedom. That paradox actually suits both of us. But, I still need to clarify this with him!
2026/2027: Astrology backs it up (apparently). Late 2025 to early 2026 is the impulse window. Late 2026 into 2027 is the stabilisation window. Weirdly, it will have been the 3 year arc in May 2026 that I have read about, again I am taking all of this with a pinch of salt!
That’s the vision I hope to manifest! A tarot read did confirm marriage next year… so we’ll see! I am also in my personal year 2 next year, where it’s a strong possibility, and whilst being single has its pluses, it has its minuses too, and after over 3 years of being single, decades of not the right guy, I want to do life with my right guy for life, go on adventures and grow in union with someone. Plus, apparently, my chart says I am designed for partnership, so we’ll see! Watch this space!
For anyone navigating a break-up, twin flame initiation, karmic untangling (been there!), know that you are not alone, it’s a process, and I am here to support you if you need it.
Until next time!
Stay grounded, stay sovereign, stay you!
Much Love,
Elisha 🔥
